Once I said goodbye, but that’s not what I meant.

You see, what I should have said was “I love you, but now is not the right time for us.” It sounds like a cheesy breakup line, but in fact I mean it in the completely opposite manner. It was not the right time. I was not the right person. I didn’t want the right things.

But now, I could just kick myself. Because I didn’t say I need time to grow as a person, and maybe so do you. I just quit, just like I always have. But now I know that was not the right thing to do. That’s right: I was wrong.

Suddenly, I can see everything clearly. I can see what I want, and what I don’t. And I can see what I used to have, and what I gave up. And, more importantly, I can clearly understand what I have felt all along. I am now ripe, ready to pick, ready to live my life. And I can see you clearly now, and value you like I don’t think I did before. That is not to say that I didn’t value you then, but I didn’t know how much you really meant to me until now.

I would hope that you may feel the same way, and give me a chance.