Last couple of weeks have not been my best. Point in case: Today, I started to freak out at the library because I could not process what was being asked of me for my litigation homework. Mind you, that is a worst case scenario: brain completely shots down, I freak out momentarily, and soon enough it comes back to me. I hate it!
I feel powerless, like being trapped inside my own brain. But, it is what it is. If I took better care to take my pills when and how I am supposed to, this would probably never happen. At least not now that the dosage is decent; when it was higher, after a while I would start feeling like the stupidest person in the world. Not a good feeling for me. I don’t mind feeling stupid when surrounded by people who I know are as smart as, or smarter than, me, but otherwise, it’s like hell on earth.
In any case, all litigation assignments for the rest of the term are done, and I just have to focus on not forgetting what I have learned so that I can take the final. The only class I am concerned about is Real Estate Law since I have no idea what I got on the midterm and I missed last week’s session. I am not too concerned about Wills, Trusts & Estates, since I like the subjects and it’s doable. In any case, this semester is almost over and I have only four (4) class awaiting me in the summer.
Going to school is certainly not like I remember it. I have taken six (6) courses each semester and felt rather laid back. In college, I took three (3) and felt like the work wouldn’t end! It’s just different. But I don’t, for one second, regret going to Chicago.