Just Here

I am just here: thinking of what it’s all about, what it’s all worth it. Is it worth it? I feel like I wasted my time in Chicago, because: 1) no one will give me job were I can live to my full potential; 2) I wouldn’t dare apply to one of the Top 20s again; 3) I don’t...

Having Loved

To know love is to forget thyself. To know love is to live in a breathless state.To know love is to dream while wide-awake.To know love is to die every single day.To know love is to exist without being.To know love is to look without seeing.To know love is to live...

Emptiness

The heart lives in a hollow whole: deep, dark, daunting. The soul can’t stand to know what the heart’s been pleading. The soul knows the heart is bleeding. The heart cries, weeps with indescribable affliction; who knew life could betray it so. The soul clamors for its...

Thinking…

(1) I don’t want to sell my house. I do think I should, but I don’t want to. In fact, I think I would be better off if I had 2 roommates. That solves a lot of my problems, and let’s me keep my house too. (2) I want to go back to Chicago more than anything in the...