by | May 1, 2007 | Recovered, Venting

I am having a bad day. I am just overwhelmed by anything. I canā€™t seem to get out of one problem to get into another, and every person I have spoken to today has just added unto that. I would think they want me to stay like this; donā€™t they understand?! It all sucks....

In the mirror…

by | Apr 29, 2007 | Recovered, Venting

If who I see in the mirror is who I am, then who was I when there was someone else there looking back? I donā€™t even look like a semblance of myself, not even a bit like me. But I look like I feel: empty, withdrawn and washed out.But if that is I in the mirror, if that...

How is it possible…

by | Apr 29, 2007 | Recovered, Venting

[Formerly Showing a YouTube Video, since removed.] I watch this, and I am saddened. I watch, and I worry. The people there donā€™t seem to grasp how important the glaciers are, how much we rely on them. The glacier melts, and they think itā€™s fun. Is there no hopeā€¦? More...

Just Here

by | Apr 29, 2007 | Recovered, Venting

I am just here: thinking of what itā€™s all about, what itā€™s all worth it. Is it worth it? I feel like I wasted my time in Chicago, because: 1) no one will give me job were I can live to my full potential; 2) I wouldnā€™t dare apply to one of the Top 20s again; 3) I donā€™t...

Having Loved

by | Apr 27, 2007 | Poems, Recovered

To know love is to forget thyself. To know love is to live in a breathless state.To know love is to dream while wide-awake.To know love is to die every single day.To know love is to exist without being.To know love is to look without seeing.To know love is to live...

Emptiness

by | Apr 27, 2007 | Poems, Recovered

The heart lives in a hollow whole: deep, dark, daunting. The soul canā€™t stand to know what the heartā€™s been pleading. The soul knows the heart is bleeding. The heart cries, weeps with indescribable affliction; who knew life could betray it so. The soul clamors for its...

Thinking…

by | Apr 27, 2007 | Recovered, Venting

(1) I donā€™t want to sell my house. I do think I should, but I donā€™t want to. In fact, I think I would be better off if I had 2 roommates. That solves a lot of my problems, and letā€™s me keep my house too. (2) I want to go back to Chicago more than anything in the...